So, I’ve been playing with the idea of becoming a blogger for a few years now actually. I read various blogs, I think of things I want to share all the time, and as we enter the beginning of 2016, I just felt it was time to stop hemming and hawing and just write. So, here goes…
Let’s first look at what a blog is. It’s a platform to share thoughts, exchange thoughts and with any luck, offer a positive impact to a reader or few. Let’s also consider what a successful blog may look like. From my perspective, there are a high number of followers (5000+), there are positive comments and exchanges for each post, and if it does have a positive impact on a reader, it is shared. I’m sure there’s something I missed, so any tips will be welcomed and well received. 🙂
Another aspect of the blogs that I’ve enjoyed reading the most is their theme and title. One of the themes that has been the most impactful in my own path (and the one I write about in my head the most) is this whole idea of self love. I see this term everywhere. I have for decades. Every quote or meme that has something to do with self-love, is something that catches my eye and often my heart. So, that’s the theme. That’s the direction I’m taking this…
Coming from a background with a lot of what I’ll refer to today as “action”, the idea of self-love is something I have struggled with deeply. I was convinced for the vast majority of my first 40 years of life that I was jinxed or somehow had some dark spell cast upon me. I felt unworthy, inadequate, worried, stressed and anxious and had this sinister voice in my head that even while I would fight like hell to be positive, to keep on truckin’, and even though I had a few great successes, it would always slyly let me know that there would be more strife, more trauma and that I would always just barely survive this life gig. Please note that most of the language used in this paragraph is past tense.
It was eight years ago when I decided to become a hypnotherapist, and it was in the very training stages of this career change that I learned I even had this sinister voice inside. I learned that I was a victim of my own mind and soul and that I actually had hatred for myself. It was a really bitter sweet awakening.
As I have grown in my work as a practitioner that cares very much about the message I carry to others as well as the example I live in that walk, that I have put in my most avid work in the healing of my own issues and facing of my own demons. This level of inner work, over the many years of many other forms of therapies and healing work, has been by far the most revealing and most en-“light”-ening. I have released a great deal of the causes for the self-loathing that held me back from experiencing self-love and can honestly say that the sinister voice is very quiet. I dare not say it is gone, as I dare not take any of the work I’ve done, facilitated or witnessed for granted. But healing work is real. Self love is real. Learning to value, honor and love yourself is a path worthy of not only walking, but sharing about.
So, here I am. The title of this blog is “P.S. I love you”. My name is Paula Sue and I love who I am. I have imperfections galore. I have struggles in life like everyone else. However, as I continue to live this gig called life, I am truly grateful for all that is here. I have this gift to see the silver lining in almost any situation. I still complain, but even in the most horrendous of bitch sessions, I catch myself and the light is always brighter. It’s often humbling, but then again, isn’t being human just one overall humbling, bumbling experience after another? And don’t we grow and learn and laugh about so much of that as we move through to the other side of these experiences?
I’ve positioned this blog here on my meditations website because meditation, affirmation and positive inner message are a significant part of this whole journey I’m on and sharing. Meditation is another buzz word that has gained a ton of recognition and credibility in recent years. To speak to it briefly, I’ll say that there are many, many forms of meditation. The ones here are but a sample of what you can do, so do some R & D (research and development) for yourself and learn what supports you. I promise that whatever you choose and evolve with, it will benefit you, no matter your decision about following my ramblings here.
So, welcome to my blog. Welcome to the mind of Paula. I’ve questioned if writing this thing is an act of selfishness or arrogance, but then I also questioned that if writing it may be a gateway for just one person to step into the empowerment of loving themselves, allowing themselves permission to speak their truth and express their greatness, or even in the simplest of affects, allow them to consider all of that and crack the door open. I’ll try my best to keep it balanced with the humor that comes with fumbling and making mistakes, as they have been my greatest lessons. My favorite saying for today is that the more I learn the less I know. I’m certain this endeavor will be an adventure. Thanks for reading and getting on the ride with me.
I love you too,